Post by Konrad Raab on Sept 27, 2023 5:12:17 GMT
I knew when Ginny looked at me that night when I said before the Kandis match that I didn't care for the world title on top of my blog, saying it was a piece of tin. She was shocked. I couldn't blame her as nobody had the guts to say that about the world title before. She came to Fort Worth, Texas, with me and Jasmine as I had a NASCAR Xfinity Series championship, plus the race overall to contend with. She got to meet Jasmine for the first time. I was happy they got along because Jasmine and Ginny were important to me as family members, or I considered Jasmine as a family member already due to her being my lady friend. As Jasmine went skateboarding in a local skatepark we found while shopping, me and Ginny sat in my motorhome, and she started the discussion.
Ginny Raab: "I got to be honest, you are absolutely crazy not to care about winning the World Title."
Konrad Raab: "When I attacked Kandis, the world title was never why I wanted a match with her. I wanted to face her long before she became champion. That piece of tin is fucking worthless to me."
Ginny Raab: "But why don't you care? Why is the world title worthless to you?"
Konrad Raab: "Because it is. Championships in wrestling are a waste of fucking time. You don't get to keep a wrestling championship for the rest of your life. To me, a wrestling championship is minuscule to my NASCAR Xfinity Series Regular Season Championship trophy."
I had become the NASCAR Xfinity Series Regular Season Champion a few weeks ago in Daytona and was given the trophy at Bristol. That was much better and bigger than the world title because, unlike a wrestling title, a championship trophy will never be taken away from me.
Ginny Raab: "I can't believe you'd say that, and I know as a manager, I need to get you to care about winning wrestling titles again, especially as something as big as the World Title. I sense an emotion of you that you're hiding about that belt in particular.
Suddenly, Ginny spotted a weakness in me about the world title, and I was hiding it because it was easier than admitting it. Only I stayed silent, but my body wasn't at all as I sweating and shaking like crazy, and Ginny saw the signs already.
Ginny Raab: "Your body language explains why you don't want to go for the world title. You might as well say it."
Konrad Raab: "Fine, I will. The truth is I'm scared of going for the World Title. I lack the confidence even to perform to win the title. I prefer not to go for it than to do a world title match and lose. Even thinking about it scares the living shit out of me."
I became increasingly pale and coughed a lot as I felt pressure in my chest to the point I had to cover my mouth as I was beginning to feel sick as I say this.
Konrad Raab: "Excuse me."
I immediately had a panic attack as I rushed to the bathroom and vomited a lot because I feared performing for the world title. I vomited for five minutes, walked weakly to the table and sat down.
Ginny Raab: "Konrad, you need to confront your fears and going for the world title isn't as scary as you think it is."
Konrad Raab: "It is because the pressure to perform to go out there and win is too much. Sure, the other belts are far easier, but once you have a world title match and lose, you never get the shot again. I don't want or need it."
Ginny Raab: "I understand that you don't deserve the title and have a lack of interest, but it would do you good to become the world champ. Imagine how hated you'd be if you were world champ?"
Konrad Raab: "I don't need titles to be hated. I want to be happy and able to move on with my life. That's far more worthy of an achievement than winning a piece of tin that, honestly, if I won that piece of tin, it still wouldn't make me happy."
I meant everything I said about the World title. Being worthless and making me miserable. I never understood why Asher thought for a second I was in his way to win the SCW World Title when I specifically said in my video I had no interest in winning that piece of tin.
Ginny Raab: "OK, think about it this way. What if you became a world champion not only for yourself to overcome your fears and insecurities of winning the belt but also the bigger thing of bringing in more European wrestlers to wrestle as a World Champion? Think how much bigger European Fiery Nation stable would be if you inspired European wrestlers to join the sport?"
Konrad Raab: "Sure, it would be a bonus, but I just can't fucking say or even demand to staff I want the world title without having a panic attack."
Ginny Raab: "I think you need to talk to a sports psychologist about this fear and panic attacks you have when it comes to the world title. You can't let this fear beat you."
I know what she was saying, it always scares the shit out of me when thinking the SCW Title because I don't know how to get there or how to prepare mentally for it. It's not like other titles where I can take short cuts and if I demanded say an Adrenaline, TV, US, Underground or Tag Title, more or less I would get one. You can't do any od those things with the world title. You literally have to earn that belt with wins and that's an issue itself.
Konrad Raab: "I don't know if I want the title shot at all."
Ginny Raab: "I will find you a sports psychologist to help you OK?"
I nodded as I let Ginny get to work of finding one as I sulked, wondering how the hell I'm going to mentally prepare for the match. Granted, I wanted to kick Kandis's fucking head off, but the interest of beating Simon and Asher and the interest of me wanting to win the world title, non existant.
Ginny Raab: "I got to be honest, you are absolutely crazy not to care about winning the World Title."
Konrad Raab: "When I attacked Kandis, the world title was never why I wanted a match with her. I wanted to face her long before she became champion. That piece of tin is fucking worthless to me."
Ginny Raab: "But why don't you care? Why is the world title worthless to you?"
Konrad Raab: "Because it is. Championships in wrestling are a waste of fucking time. You don't get to keep a wrestling championship for the rest of your life. To me, a wrestling championship is minuscule to my NASCAR Xfinity Series Regular Season Championship trophy."
I had become the NASCAR Xfinity Series Regular Season Champion a few weeks ago in Daytona and was given the trophy at Bristol. That was much better and bigger than the world title because, unlike a wrestling title, a championship trophy will never be taken away from me.
Ginny Raab: "I can't believe you'd say that, and I know as a manager, I need to get you to care about winning wrestling titles again, especially as something as big as the World Title. I sense an emotion of you that you're hiding about that belt in particular.
Suddenly, Ginny spotted a weakness in me about the world title, and I was hiding it because it was easier than admitting it. Only I stayed silent, but my body wasn't at all as I sweating and shaking like crazy, and Ginny saw the signs already.
Ginny Raab: "Your body language explains why you don't want to go for the world title. You might as well say it."
Konrad Raab: "Fine, I will. The truth is I'm scared of going for the World Title. I lack the confidence even to perform to win the title. I prefer not to go for it than to do a world title match and lose. Even thinking about it scares the living shit out of me."
I became increasingly pale and coughed a lot as I felt pressure in my chest to the point I had to cover my mouth as I was beginning to feel sick as I say this.
Konrad Raab: "Excuse me."
I immediately had a panic attack as I rushed to the bathroom and vomited a lot because I feared performing for the world title. I vomited for five minutes, walked weakly to the table and sat down.
Ginny Raab: "Konrad, you need to confront your fears and going for the world title isn't as scary as you think it is."
Konrad Raab: "It is because the pressure to perform to go out there and win is too much. Sure, the other belts are far easier, but once you have a world title match and lose, you never get the shot again. I don't want or need it."
Ginny Raab: "I understand that you don't deserve the title and have a lack of interest, but it would do you good to become the world champ. Imagine how hated you'd be if you were world champ?"
Konrad Raab: "I don't need titles to be hated. I want to be happy and able to move on with my life. That's far more worthy of an achievement than winning a piece of tin that, honestly, if I won that piece of tin, it still wouldn't make me happy."
I meant everything I said about the World title. Being worthless and making me miserable. I never understood why Asher thought for a second I was in his way to win the SCW World Title when I specifically said in my video I had no interest in winning that piece of tin.
Ginny Raab: "OK, think about it this way. What if you became a world champion not only for yourself to overcome your fears and insecurities of winning the belt but also the bigger thing of bringing in more European wrestlers to wrestle as a World Champion? Think how much bigger European Fiery Nation stable would be if you inspired European wrestlers to join the sport?"
Konrad Raab: "Sure, it would be a bonus, but I just can't fucking say or even demand to staff I want the world title without having a panic attack."
Ginny Raab: "I think you need to talk to a sports psychologist about this fear and panic attacks you have when it comes to the world title. You can't let this fear beat you."
I know what she was saying, it always scares the shit out of me when thinking the SCW Title because I don't know how to get there or how to prepare mentally for it. It's not like other titles where I can take short cuts and if I demanded say an Adrenaline, TV, US, Underground or Tag Title, more or less I would get one. You can't do any od those things with the world title. You literally have to earn that belt with wins and that's an issue itself.
Konrad Raab: "I don't know if I want the title shot at all."
Ginny Raab: "I will find you a sports psychologist to help you OK?"
I nodded as I let Ginny get to work of finding one as I sulked, wondering how the hell I'm going to mentally prepare for the match. Granted, I wanted to kick Kandis's fucking head off, but the interest of beating Simon and Asher and the interest of me wanting to win the world title, non existant.